photos!!

fall in love with love. 

love has hate. 

hate means love

and hate is pain. 

but we must forgive and forget. 

eventhough it is so hard to do. 

i want to trust again. 

but i fall and no one catches me. 

so i love love again. 

and stay alone through happieness. 

that made no sense but whatevs ;)

love, 

Maddie 

A picture is worth a thousand words

I am a huge sucker for photography. The way a camera captures a scene, in an effortless manner. The way light can hit and change the entire mood of the peice. the way you can almost hear whats happening in the picture. But that’s all color photography.

Color’s opposite, black and white, has a way of translating in a whole new way. It can speak to a whole new crowd, and it can single out those who appreciate the fine arts. The darkness of the photo can be the lightest of all. 

there are some photographers who shoot primarily colorless. i learned how to develop pictures in black and white. My favorite present day photographer, Aneta Kowalczyk (don't ask me to pronounce that)

shoots in color, but her black and white portraits are breath taking. But one of my favorite (Late) photographers is Garry Winogrand. he can take a shot at just the right time to capture the inexplainable movement of man. 

the photos are Garry Winogrand. aneta's website is http://www.anetakowalczyk.com/ 

check it out, and who knows, you might like ansel adams someday! 

Love, 

Maddie 

the truth

have you ever just want to come clean about something?
you write and re-write how you're going to say it. over and over.
but nothing sounds right.
you type everything out.
but delete it all at the last minute.
songs that describe you to no end.
but you're prince charming doesn't know.
and "Mr. Right" won't just waltz in.
fate is a tricky thing.
you don't decide anything anymore.
because with every decision you make, it was bound to happen at one point or another.
but the truth is,
i love you.
i can't say it at more of a point blank.
the thing is,
you don't know it.
you've been there for me when i needed you most.
I've turned my back on you but you never gave up.
and the sad thing is,
you like my best friend.
so I'll just wait for the right time.
because you're worth waiting for.

thoughts

there’s moments in life where i want simply nothing. nothing but to lay down in an open field and be left to my thoughts. but when ever i attempt that, i end up being pulled away, wisped into drama. when i get home, there’s supposed to be moment where you can relax, but with homework and all, there is no way. then on friday nights i stay up late blogging. theres not much else to do. my eyelids slowly drift down as i look at the computer screen. my fingers become slower in typing. i don’t want to sleep. sleep for me means nightmares. I don’t sleep well, and staying awake is way easier then being vulnerable to other people. humpback whales sleep one half of their brain at a time incase of attack. i wish i could sleep like that so i wouldn’t have to miss out on a regular social life. everywhere i go it seems as soon as i leave something good happens. i miss out on hippy circles in feilds. so before i go to bed i just think. i don’t care what i think about. i get lost in my thoughts. theres no way out once you enter.